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One of the things that makes me the saddest, is when someone I know says something about not believing in God. First of all, I know it makes God sad because one of His children is choosing to ignore Him. And second, I just feel so bad that they could have what I have, but they don't want it.  How do they manage living without Him? How do they stop that hurt that's deep inside of them?.. It's like living your life with no hope and I just hate that they have to go through that. Not that they know what they're missing.. but still. My heart goes out to them and I pray for them. Especially because I know I could've been a better example to all of them instead of giving in to my own selfishness and wallowing in failure.. 


I'm more myself now than I have been in a long time.  And I'm happy for me, I just regret some of the decisions I made and not being stronger. But mostly for the other people I was around, and not me. If that makes sense..