i wish sometimes that people would listen to how i feel in my situation and not try to force their own personal agenda on me.

i mean really, it's my problem. you can't say how you would handle it because nothing like this has EVER happened to you.

i'm handling it pretty freaking well. i didn't go off the deep end, i still love everyone involved, and i guarantee you i am more forgiving than most.

so although it might sound selfish and bitter, i just WISH that people would stop trying to tell me "how it is" and just be there for me.

it's been months since i found out. MONTHS. and it will probably take years to get through this normally..

maybe when i reach the one year marker i'll be able to better pretend like this is all okay. but i doubt it.. it's still not okay and i'm just glad i got OC at the same time to kind of balance out the heaven with the hell.