LIFE lately. sheesh.

One of my best friends since I was like four is getting married tomorrow.


To someone I don't know.. 


And none of us were even invited.


I mean, it doesn't surprise me that I'M not invited because she blocked me on facebook several months ago.. & stopped talking with me.


But it's just confusing because none of the people who love her the most know him or what's going through her head.


I was for sure she'd at least invite Adam.. Like.. IDK.


I just hope she really is doing the right thing for her. And he best treat her well or he'll have a ton of people he doesn't know coming after him.


I wish I had some means of making things right with friends who've "drifted apart," for lack of a better term.


I mean, people mess up.. Life gets hard. Life gets weird. Especially right now. We're all at the age of completely freaking out. I realize some of us are perfect and don't need to go through that whole stage. But most of the people I know are dealing with it.  Being rebellious, not thinking, randomly effing up, having NO idea what they're doing with their lives.. Being on our own and not having other people decide what choices we're making anymore.  It's scary. And you have to own up to your mistakes and learn to stick up for yourself all while trying not to mess up relationships that used to come so easily...


I don't understand why everyone can't just realize this and see that we ALL mess up and if we aren't there for each other it just makes it worse.  


I guess someone just has to have the balls to reach out to the other person and hope they don't get shot down. & if you do, at least you can know you tried. 


Anyway. Friend rant done. I just don't get why it's harder now than it used to be.. 


My throat hurts. It's like I get sick every other month. RIDICULOUS.


But.. aside from all of that, I'm happy. Oddly, I'm always optimistic. And I'm such a screw up.. Lol .. You'd think I'd be depressed and hating myself by now. Ahhh well. 


Guess there's no other way to be really..